So there won't be a my Isaac after all. It was all a fallacy, make believe and lie. As a matter of fact there won't be any outing. It'll be on my own again, alone - as always

More disappointment. You promised that we were supposed to rise up. That's what You wrote - especially no wild goose chases. But here am I, being the butt of jokes ... again

It's really heart sickening to be always like that, a never ending cycle. Certainly not the abundant life that I keep hearing and reading about.

my isaac

Amidst the anger, disappointment and brokenness, there are times when I still try to understand You. Amidst those pockets of conversation, you gave a though - Isaac.

Could it be that she is my isaac? And You wanted to see if I still remained faithful and true without the prospect or idea of her being a partner? Or am I thinking up balooney again.
7 days time, (which is a recurring biblical number) we'll see if this thought is truly of You or just my mind messing up.

I do hope that 7 days time (since that incident) just like how you provided for Abraham though he believed that you would resurrect Isaac - that you'd come through for me too ... for once, come through for me

broken record

I am thoroughly convinced that You certainly either hate me or despise me or both. Create a heart that is large enough to love many; at times even some unlovables but place it in a person that is truly unlovable. Jokes on me again eh? It has always been and shall always be.

Lead up so high fully by faith only to have it all crashing down again. I placed everything - all my chips were in, with faith for a reason and now I'm the only one left again with pulverized dreams and desires. Same story, different year, different person, same conclusion.

no surprises

It's past the mark yet no message at all. Messenger confirms delivery and briefly explained what went on. I suppose most if not all of it was just out of courtesy?
History repeats itself ... again.

Surprised? Not really. 'Tis has been this way for so many years.

***

Captain. VSD Reality has opened fire with warheads, Hope too.
I know Maddie, I know.

***

Rather than gripe about our own predicament, have to remember to pray for Messenger and Pneoxian.
Was really, truly honestly hoping that it would mark a double happiness, but looks like only Pneoxian will get his 'yes'

t minus aftermath

Payload has been delivered successfully. Messenger confirmed that she was happy. The meeting too is over, yet it is deafening silence again. If only the sequence of songs truly meant something:

John Waller - While I'm Waiting
The Glitch Mob - Between Two Points (New song)
Yui - CHERRY
Lincoln Brewster - Amazed

But then again it is too easy to cop out that one wants to believe what isn't really there.

***

Captain? Overdrive has opened fire
I know Madeline. I know
There is still no confirmation about the signal decoding?
None yet

0800

0800 hours. Little over 3 hours it'll take place. We can only wait till then and see what happens from that point.

t minus 0

It has come to this.All the preparations have been made. The gift is now with the messenger. It really all boils down to this - all chips in. Win big or go home empty handed. In roughly 12 hours we ought to have our answer - roughly.

***


Captain, are you sure of this?
Madeline, there can never be 100% surety of this. When welcoming Legend, it will always be a risk
We open ourselves completely
All part and parcel of it.
But why this signal? this particular one? Sure there are others out there that we can decipher
You're both right and wrong in the sense that yes, there are other signals that we could decipher to determine whether it originates from Legend. Wong in the sense that circumstances beyond our control have lead us up to this one.
We can only hope Captain
Ironic isn't it when one of the VSD's is named Hope. There she is bearing down on us with the rest.
They know captain that we've lowered all shields in preparation.
Yeap. They're aligning to unleash one massive salvo.


***

Much though and effort has been put into this, prayers included. Fault me if I do jump the gun, but from limited understanding of the three point marker, this seems to be the right direction.

double

Pneoxian will be utilizing The Fourteenth for a huge step as well. It is confirmed, and this makes the both of us. One can greatly hope that the outcome, is it too much to ask for double happiness?

Day 7

It'll be seven days from now when Operation Cat will take effect. It is already in motion - most of it the planning stage. After much consideration and thought, decided to go on with it. Risk will always be there. Not doing anything results in nothing happening. Waiting too long results in lost of interest.

Despite not having any form of concrete evidence or sign, one has to make the best of deductions.

I risk it all in doing this, but as often as I have told myself: She's worth it. Worth the risk for this action.

present

A wild suggestion appeared, why not send a gift for the Fourteenth? Giving a few days before dtermining whether to go ahead or not to. Strangely after one video, a few ideas emerged for pneoxian and myself to produce. The catch is that it involves her and a few other mutual friends.

Can't help but wonder whether these are again wishful thinking or indeed things that are yet to come.