It becomes increasingly difficult not to write about it especially when writing is the only outlet available to pour out thoughts and feelings. The sad truth is that the likelihood of anyone truly understanding the entire scenario is slim to none. Sure many may profess to remark that they would but truly how many can "miss someone whom they have not met before"?
We'll take this brief opportunity to recap all that has happened, the main highlights as all of it rests heavily on my shoulder - and truly I am at lost.
First few events would be The Maker granting numerous opportunity to interact and build relations with mom.
Following that would be three labels: BT remarked husband material when sweeping the floor. One occasion was called siblings and another spouse by two different kiddos.
Next was the opportunity to get drinks! Small gesture but certainly an honor
Then came the Dinner night & Duo Choreography. Forever immortalized, how breath-taking she was in the blue dress that night. Vocabulary fails at this point of time
Camp was again The Maker's mercy. Camp and all that happened along with it.
After camp there was interaction with grandma
Then again granted interaction with dad
Sherlock Holmes for New Years
A surprise invitation for lunch, and the most amazing ice kacang & grandma again
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In all honesty I know that all these are from the Maker! They cannot and are not my doing! I merely acted on the opportunity but the opportunity was Maker created! This much I am sure. Yet ... days go by when I do wish we would speak a little more often.
Self-examination:
Is my pace too fast?
Am I trying to chart my own course?
Perhaps reading in between the lines?
Self-defense:
Still much uncertainty
Very much would like to know what she really thinks and feel
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