It isn't even half time yet and already there were many incidents where we failed. Topic was about choices - choices and consequences ranging from the simple, to the complex ones. Inevitably the topic about marriage and dating will creep up.Pastor RY does mention about the prayer for his own children. Ideally it would be some one appealing and one whom is also the daughter of The Maker - ideally
Yet i cannot help but wonder, do they know? Do they really know what it is like to suffer as Tantalus did? Not for one two years, not even five nor ten but for nearly two decades?
The whole purpose of this Recount was to monitor Phantom and to counter it when it shows up. Having said that almost on a daily basis - at least weekly, there will be reminders. If it isn't weddings, and pictures it will be topics of discussion or questions.Inevitably again, it will force Overdrive out and both Phantom and Overdrive will eventually crumble everything.
If there were answers perhaps it wouldn't be as painful as it is. Again all the questions just hover in the air - unanswered.
Why do i have it tougher?
Why is it that people find me so repulsive?
Why are there so much more pre-requisites that is required of me?
Why the deprivation?
I really wonder what really goes on? Does The Maker silently watch each time the waves of heartache from unrequitedness wash over so much so that there is manifestation of physical pain?
Does He delight in that? or indifferent?
What happens when one longingly looks and sees the joy and happiness others enjoy fully knowing that it will be the wolf and the moon scenario.Irrespective; it will be back to square one. No answers but only lingering pain accompanied by the faithful loneliness.
"Loneliness is just a feeling that can be overcomed like any other feeling" is the regular saying.
Fuck off is the reply. You have absolutely no idea what levels of deprivation some people have.
Yup, frigate's all but destroyed again. Another lost battle.
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