The tracking of the days has been lost. Nearing and following the centerpoint it all has been downhill. As sure as the sun rises, sure enough time and time again reminders will appear; reminders about how futile each situation has been and is. Reminders of what levels of heartache, rejection and ostracization that has and continues to occurr.
How is one supposed to withold against such an onslaught? It is the battle of the mind that one just cannot champion.
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What's more difficult is the fact that should there be any divine intervention, one has to truly belief and worship truly - both of which cannot exist without the existence of a certain measure of faith. And faith it iself the barrier, to believe the unseen. Certain things are easier to have faith in, but not this situation.
The big question remains. Is He not willing or unable. If he wasn't willing what would make Him willing now?
The more lack of faith there is, the more He will be unable to do any work and it results in an evidenceless situation which then agains perpetuate the entire cycle.
That brings us back to square one- Tantalus.
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