missed posting due to net filter. There are times when one wants something to happen badly that one can perhaps unconsciously see or more aptly interpret events in a certain manner. After the remark by chels, following day (chance?) two songs played back to back, Two Is Better Than One and Fairytale. Make no mistake, if what has been said in the past post comes to pass, truly indeed really it will be a fairytale. Admittedly there is much elation, but in the midst of this feeling last year's sting haunts.
So sure we were that the company event last year would be a pivotal moment - so sure was the false hope backed with feelings. Sadly one has to watch out not to let history repeat itself again, because if it does then it will be another bad story on replay just a different person.
If only ... if only I could just glimpse - perhaps I would be more prepared. Perhaps I would know and perhaps I could avoid many of this dashed hopes and unrequitedness. Can one be blamed for now being really sceptical after what happened last year? Blame all anyone wants, perhaps at this point of time survival instincts kick in - self preservation.
Feelings and hopes aside, even as I ponder on the situation I would dare say that there has been slight growth. Rather than being overly anxious and hopeful (maybe to the point of obsession) now it’s just patient waiting, focusing more on other things; things like self improvement, video skills acquisition, more mini projects and of course during off-peak times to sharpen that Dragon Punch – FADC – Ultra.
Still, despite how over and over again hope destroys this frigate, one will continue to hope. Father please ... please consider-
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