Despite the mundane daily routine, the lack of interesting events or turnabout / life-changing events, feelings of elation off and on bubble up. Mentioned that it mostly comes when there is knowledge of her liking certain comments and/or replying.
Always remembered about the prayer request - yet am i shooting myself in the foot in trying to forget her? Or is it some twisted defense mechanism to prevent future hurt? The more i ponder upon it, it would be the latter.
We've already decided to just take the shot. After all "You miss 100% of the shots that you do not take"
Fear is there - won't deny it. After years of rejection, it doesn't lessen the fear, maybe even amplifies it.
Still pretty much at square one. Absolutely no clue regarding how she feels. At the same time battling hard to maintain a positive outlook - don't bull rush and automatically think no.
At any rate the game plan is to maintain status quo: The Maker's business above all else. Whatever dreams or desires that are personal are irrelevant.
High WarLord! General seeks audience - in truth slightly more than audience; companionship
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