in the end, things did work out. Not because of my own doing, but because of the restorative work of The Maker. All credit goes to the maker. Least that is one thing good that happened.
Apart from that things have been rather mundane. We're still under fire from Walkabout. The damage admittedly now isn't as devastating. I suppose one can say the mindset and paradigm shift is working?
But even saying that, thoughts still at times run overdrive.
i can be at ease and nonchalant about things (or pretend to be) but as soon as she appears, you can expect all the soppy feelings and description to flood in. Many times i wonder whether this rush is just going to be like the other rushes. It comes suddenly, stays for a while, creates a gaping ache and then dissipates leaving behind painful memories and unanswered questions
Can i be at fault for thinking "why would this be different?" Have i turned so cynical or should i still become the hopeless romantic, bounding after the rainbow?
Daily. Every day i wish that You would grant me more insight; specific instructions, actions or path to take with regards to all these - even if it meant if i were to fly solo until the day i die, any form of clear indication would really help
But such isn't the way to please The Maker. Faith and Trust is required - Faith ... Believing despite the obvious lack of evidence.
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