all i see is darkness

"Father, all i see is darkness"

as Arthas utters those words, so much more meaning encompasses that sentence.

indeed it is an accomplishment seeing the fall of the lich king (which is usually abbreviated as lk) and in this case, going along the path of daydreams, it does signify something. It is a pleasant though of setting something in motion in a realm of the living, but then again as with every other one, they are far fetched thoughts. Despite consciously reminding myself of the real situation, it really can't be help. These feelings often creep up. The burn of unrequited affection, the knowledge of the decision i made - constantly plagues me.

no coincident that Arthas' words are also mine. All i see is darkness. There has been no progress whatsoever in anything, no signs, no hints, no inclination, no direction. As a matter of fact there is regression, more fall outs with friends to name one. Coming again to the point of turning away, this time it felt very very close.

the weight of discouragement, betrayal, the disappointment and frustration of unmet dreams / desires was greater than what i could bear.

Again it took the little ones to steer me back to the right path. My prayers go out with Eliza, Chelsea and Alex - yet in the ignorance of what went on, is going on, their demeanour and faith was enough. I pray that they will have their needs met and above that, blessings too for their own personal desires and wants. What they have done or prevented, is unknown to them. Yet even though i no longer can persevere for myself given current situation - persevere for them, so that they will not stumble.