time and time again those thoughts arrive. The thing is that it isn't know whether they are just pleasant thoughts or are they indeed some indication of the future.
Thoughts of testimony and encouragement for the future generation, of how this whole escapade started, took place and ended. Indeed there is a greater good, but admittingly too there is some personal element in it - for who can fault? Personal elements or desires are really how we are wired. Reduce as much as possible, but it is there one way or another - whether immediate or eternal.
But for now keep doing what you have been doing until said otherwise, despite the impending doomsday (Monday 1st November tentatively)
The very thought of her leaving for good, chills the bone.
The idea of losing contact forever, paralyzes me.
Despite that, despite all that, continue to crawl forward. My faith has all but faded. At this point of time, it seems that it is now less than a mustard seed (if that's possible) and supposedly that should suffice.
Perseverance, if not for yourself - for others.
All that would be left, will be pockets of fond memories or small incidents or words here and there, quite possibly treasured for all eternity - the filing room, the night watch, the sms-es, the driving, the few dinners, the road crossing, the rain walk, the few phone conversations - just to name a few.
When that day comes, we will sing The song of the Sun - Taiyo No Uta.
Good Bye Days.
Will we meet again? i pray we do - but the future is not mine to claim nor dictate, much to my despair.
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