monologue: sheepdog

why do i feel rejected?
because you are rejected and forsaken
is it normal?you are not called to be normal
i am still human
human you may be, but you have a mantle to shoulder - a duty
why me?who else will?
that's correct, because no one else will
what about my own dreamsthis isn't about you. your life is not your own to live
but the results ...
do you do it for fame?
noglory?
no
recognition
no
then you know why you have to bear this cross?
yes
then bear it
it doesn't make it any easierit doesn't. but who else would? who else stops mid track and looks around?
not manythat is why, for them, you shall slow down. for them, you will deny yourself and for them, you will sacrifice
it is ...
unfair? this isn't a question about being fair. you know the very depths of your being, your drive. you know that you cannot ignore a need
yes
you will not ignore a need
 ... yes
and you know you will forsake your needs
 ... yes
for whom?
for Him. but does it mean i will be used
semantics and definitions are not in play. use discernment.
 ... but there are times ...
that it won't be easy? it is never easy all the time. this is why few are chosen for this task. always remember, the sheepdog is shunned, rejected, and forgotten - but the sheepdog always is the first in and last out irrespective of how he is treated.

This Is Your Cross