it's always in the cold silence that these thoughts will again permeate. Jess is at an event. mw gone to the event as well. Everyone's out for lunch. Guess who has to hold the fort down? Nope, no prizes there.
Alone at the office.
Alone during lunch
Alone at home
Alone in crowds
Alone in communications
Alone in life
Only one has been faithful - Madeline. Yet there is only so much that you can do eh old friend? (Speaking of which it is near high time you got another upgrade, but coffers run dry these days. Hang in there)
Tried so hard - but not good enough. Make big adjustments to years of seclusion, breaking comfort zones, pushing ownself. Tried even harder - giving up personal time. Tried some more, servitude.
... still not good enough ... maybe cursed i am, in this life. Price to pay for having second chance. Not own life to live - but for others - always, for others. Pros: Seeing others attain happiness. Cons: "Legend of the wolf's howl to the moon". Always see, never to experience.
Hull 20%
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