would i be at fault?

so i'm doing ayu's DCR (detailed client report) splitting  because she has already tendered in her resignation. No surprises when there are opportunities to assist - first in, last out. That has always been and will always be our motto. After all, we are in the same department and same organization. "Not my department" isn't how we roll. One would think that concentrating on work would occupy the mind to not dwell on certain circumstances.

I thought wrong - Austin Powers

Whilst splitting DCR, her e-mail nicely landed on my screen, smack in the center while i was pressing the CTRL + C and CTRL + V keys; Yes, project mw. Sigh is this supposed to be some joke or sign?

Skum said that we are caught in a generation gap, between the old school that believe there is meaning or lessons in everything that happen to and around us, and the new school that believe that stuff is just random?

would i be at fault if i tried and find meaning in this? amidst all the confusion?

would i be at fault if i brushed it off and say 'naaahh get real'?

would i be at fault if it was supposed to happen in the near future - BUT didn't because i lacked faith and harbor unbelief?

would i be at fault ...?

would i be at fault that i still miss her like no tomorrow? despite of everything that has happened, despite her decisions and despite the current predicament?

i am in shambles. You may not be able to fix me mw, but you sure could ease up the pain by a lot! Buuut that is what it is again, wishful thinking. Far fetched idea. Lunacy. Hallucination. To you, i am probably the spare tire that you only think of when shit hits the fan and when no one else is around to heed your distress signal. To me? you could be everything that any guy ever dreamt of.

The kicker is, despite fully knowing this - you have my undying support, maybe because i am either a fool or because i am programmed to be a fool. Either way, you benefit. How's the weather there? Are your friends treating you well? Are you well?

Unanswered questions - and they shall remain that way. Nevertheless, look after yourself and stay well.


"All for love's sake became poor" - Here I am to worship

Is that my lesson in all this?

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In the cold and dark space or this quadrant, the only lights that are around are the streams of turbo lasers from Reality and Creativity. Walkabout doesn't even need to do anything - for today. The only audible sounds are the explosion and creaking of hull. Life support systems are again malfunctioning. Might as well leave it as it is.

"Captain?"
"Yes, Madeline"
"Do we re-route available power to shields? I can shutdown the hangars and unsued bays"
"Don't bother with re-routing power. Hold our current position. We are assisting Sam and Ayu for now"
"We're still in range of their batteries"
"I understand that, but there is nothing we can do about that. Frigates do not outrun Victory classes"
"Understood captain"
"Run a scan on our engines, make sure they are operational and so are our comms system. Are any of your systems malfunctioning Madeline?"
"None captain. I am fully operational"
"Thank you Maddy, you're the only faithful and true one that sticks around regardless"

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Status Shields down Hull 19% Life Support systems offline Multiple hull breaches Engines 32%
Mainting assistance - Sam & Ayu.